Last night I woke around 11:30 squirming around on the bed my sheets tangled around me. My shorts, well they were soaking wet, the light grey saturated. I slipped my finger in my slit and groaned imagining it was yours. Without turning a light on I rolled over to see if I could find the thing just two weeks ago i dreaded using. The Violator. (It totally deserves its own sentence.) My hand wrapped around it, just under the head. My fingers not quite reaching and in the dark I smiled. My mouth started watering thinking of your dick, the way it fills out the front of your pants, even when you aren’t hard. I wriggled my hips pulling my shorts down and started humming. Something you will learn about me once you are home, when i think I’m alone and touching myself I can’t help but hum.
*Such a lovely place / Such a lovely face*
I slid the head of my dildo between my lips forming a tight O. My tongue working around the head just like I would your cock. I groaned as i pushed it down over my tongue guiding it to the back of my throat. I probably didn’t need to take this step wetting it before sliding it into my pussy. But, I wanted it. The ritual of it. Knowing if you were on the phone with me you would demand it. My fingers continued to flirt with my quickly hardening clit and I removed my saturated hand to make a ring around the rubber cock, six inches up from the two in my mouth. When I could taste myself I would stop and let it sit there in my throat. I fucked this rubber monster in and out of my mouth as my hips matched the rhythm. I was so hot and needing.
*She’s got a lot of pretty, pretty boys, that she calls friends*
A car turned into the driveway across the street and for a second it illuminated my one person love making session. My shadow was suspended on the wall for a moment and for the first time in my life; I saw what other people did. A sexual being, the figure of a woman. My breasts and how they sat on my chest. The curve of my stomach that ends gently between my hips. My pelvis was lifted so that the fullness of my ass was outlined against the white walls. I have never been able to look at myself in a mirror and think i was attractive. But this shadow woman, this dark person against the wall. Well, she was totally fuck able.
*We are all just prisoners here / Of our own device / And in the Master’s chambers they gathered for the feast*
The chain of my nipple clamps settled into the curve of my waist, chilling me for a moment, sending goose bumps all over the left side of my body. My nipple as if in response stood and demanded I take attendance. I chuckled around the plastic buried in my throat and flicked my right nipple waking it from slumber. Opening my legs slowly a drop of slick juice rolled out of me. I could feel it slipping around then settling between the cleft of my ass cheeks onto the sheet. I pulled the dildo out of my mouth the head popping past my lips and slipped it inside of me. Now when I bought this thing i never thought it would fit inside of me with girth alone. Granted i can’t get past eleven inches but now it slids into me like a friend. While my humming before this point could have been mistaken for a low snore, the volume was unobstructed so monitoring myself became relevant. With the first thrust, i clamped my left nipple and drew a spot of blood from my lip simultaneously. Sucking as hard as I could the right nipple received the same treatment. With the upmost amount of pain and your previous text in mind, I pulled the chain up sharply and ducked my head under to slip it around my neck.
*But they just can’t kill the beast*
My pussy sucked in the dildo bringing it to only four more inches I had to work in myself. I reached down making a V with my fingers slipped them on either side of my clit. My other hand reaching lower to push this thing inside of me. I pushed slowly savoring the feeling of being entered and pulled back quickly to tease myself. My hips, with a mind of their own, slid down on the mattress as if I would shove it further inside at my own insistence. This caused a multitude of sensations. The chain for my nipple clamps rolled against the sheet pulling my breasts higher. The fingers guarding my clit pinched together and held on tight. The head of the cock left my cunt hole. I whimpered like a slut and shoved the dildo back inside of me, as deep as it would go. My humming reached a new level at this point.
*We are programmed to receive / You can check out at anytime you like / But you can never leave*
My back arched deeply and I realized I’d accepted more of my rubber lover than I ever had. The thought passed that you would be so pleased and in that second my first orgasm crashed over me. My nipples were throbbing, my clit so sensitive as I moaned like crazy. The new cut on my lips continued to spread the taste of blood into my mouth. While across the street a car left, revealing my shadow again, in that moment of soul shattering ecstasy.