Longing

I miss the smell of you
On my skin
In my space

The rumble of your voice
Vibrating the walls
Of my home

I miss longing for you
Once you’ve gone

Excitedly waiting
For our next rendezvous

I miss feeling like I’m special to you.

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Longing

IV

Im done trying to love you
Trying to smile when you leave
Searching for your warmth
In these tangled, tired sheets
I feel lost in the darkness
Of a never ending search.
I’m done with trying to find you
Someone good, honest, true
I’ve worked hard to get here
In the prime of my rebirth

IV

Spinning

Words whispered
Reaching deep down
Within myself
To remember that I’m safe

Holding
Onto
You

Feeling like I’ve been

cracked open

But it’s my bed, these are my sheets
And it’s my head that I have to crawl out of.

A symphony of sensations.
As my body reaches its peak yet again
Over you and under you.
With no heavy chains or attachments.

And just when I’ve gotten so high that I’ve forgotten to breathe.
You call me back down.

Spinning

Pulse

It beats through me

A steady

Pulse

Pulse

Pulse

Pulse

Ancient and rhythmic

Wild and hardly controlled

My mouth waters

I want you.

I want the untamed taste of your tongue in my mouth.

I want to tighten and twist my body around the

Rigid

Part of you thrusting into me.

Feeling my

Pulse

Wrapped around you.

Pulse

It’s this night

Nights like this cool November night

Waiting for warm arms that will never embrace me

It doesn’t matter if I come first or second or never

Even I have abandoned myself

My heart has too many cracks to guild

Too many seams that are raveling

Too many.

I am that much.

Again I sleep alone, after a busy day of production

My body hurts and I’m working so …

Hard

At just maintaining, at growing, loving who I am

It’s this night